Dark openings. Hopeful endings.

~ The very first poem I ever wrote. ~

Death was what he wished for
Lying on the wooden bed
Remembering the moments of the past
While struggling between life and death
He still remembered
The shouting of his sons
He tried to please them
But no one could hear him
He still kept smiling for them
And wanted to see them happy
But deep inside, he wanted to cry
He remembered the time
When he was tortured
And made to leave the house
By his own children whom he had brought up
He wondered what he did wrong
Was it a punishment for his past?
Alas! It was his time to meet death
Time to meet the Ruler Above
Was asked a final wish
From the Lord above
As a reward for his patient life
Every angels shed tears
Shocked for what he wished for
He asked happiness for his sons
And to wash away their sins

Oh! Heavenly creature, do you wish to care?
And answer my doubts that I declare
Where are humans that once were born?
And those who ruled with love and not by hatred among?

Come whisper the truth if you wish to care
And be the light through darkness I fear
Lost I stand amid the many men
And reached the path from where I began

Will you not answer my plights and come down;
And wipe my tears and say, "It's all right, son"?
Will you not ease my pain dwelling for so long?
Or walk my path and say, how it feels being all alone?

Oh be blessed the sky who taught me well
To hide my tears and cheerfully smile
I only joke, for I wish to hide myself from all 
And laugh from fear of being left abandoned by all

For how long will you stop, stare and smile?
Not forever, but come down for a while
This night in sleep when I saw an angel bright
That night my soul left this world in fright

In world of heroes then, I found myself to be
Where the birds sang and danced the happy wind
And from far, an angel glanced and smiled
As if to say, that world was never meant for me!

Two days to pass and I am free,
To the world where all is strained,
From the iron bars as I see,
And the tears that have drained

A folly murder made by me,
Turned the table upside down,
How I wish I could flee,
From the one standing in the town

Shocked were both in that night
Her eyes filled by the tears,
Hid my gun in fright,
Trying to hide my fears

Having a doll in her hand,
And a tear in her eye,
Made my conscience back to stand,
For what I was, it was better to die

Sirens bursting throughout the town,
And I standing, a criminal in disgrace,
Before being dragged in my gown,
Last I saw, was her feared little face,

Two days to pass and I am free,
From hope to be rich, or fear to be caught
'Lord of myself, though not of lands,
And having nothing, yet had all.'

Earth is trembling, winds are howling
Clouds are thundering and men, fighting
Armor with gun, and I standing
Though bullet in arm, still breathing

Nowhere to go, eyes cast low
I lay down below, holding my blood flow

Hearing deaths and killings so loud
And watching my mates lying so proud
People killing people with guns drawn out
Will the rules ever fight? I seriously doubt

Nowhere to go, eyes cast low
Long ago earth displayed its nature show

For many, I killed in this shameless fight
And for once, I did forget what was right
And blew them all, in great delight
Now their all screams, in heart strike

Nowhere to go, eyes cast low
I see devil glow, enjoying this fleshy show

Call the rulers to battle and die
Along with all who act their evil ally
And see for once how sweetly they lie
Hiding their fears from facing eye to eye

Nowhere to go, eyes cast low
I wish for their fatal blow, so they never crow

Dreaming of the fun I had in snow
But fell on ground with a sudden blow
"Sorry it's my duty", cried loud my foe
And bestowed peace, piercing my heart flow

Nowhere to go, eyes are so low
Ah! My friends and Oh! My foe
Why we fought? For I would never know
Although being dead, I am left to grow
In the hearts of young and wisdom who show
There peace would flow and freedom do blow
And earth is left with angels who glow

Listen, the music of my silent tomb
Beneath the soil, amid the frozen bones
Lay my poisoned, yet cozy bed
And many insects, for my time be passed

Forget me brothers, and my loved ones
Though many had already forgotten
If blessed some time, come here and sit
Or else, snakes or worms, continue your speak

Ah! There lies my wife, let her lie
There she is at rest, so am I
And far lays a man, yet again is cursed
Lies beside his wife, stops never her tongue

Passers remember me as you pass by
As you are now, long once was I
As I am now, so you will be
Though Death is out for free

Betrayal of My Home

Like a stranger in this lonely world,
I'm away from my home.
Still I remember my old legendary tree,
where I used to go when I was free.
But my life goes on,
as it never ends.
Away from my heart,
to the world of hate,
I left my land,
thinking I would be rich.
And here I am with all my wealth,
but no friends within my sight,
and no one to call for help.
I'm left alone at this so called home,
with all these walls shouting at me,
Making me feel as a Stranger,
And saying that I got one more chance to do right,
And its tonight that I think to go back,
Back from all this started,
Back to my home I left,
I made my mind that I shall never return,
to the world of strangers inspired by beauty,
As the beauty lies within the heart of people,
Search the world for the friends you want,
You will find them on the land you hate,
Believe it or not,
but this is what I have in fate.

Seeds, grains you summon from hands
And what I wish is playing in sands
Trapped in iron cage so high
One glance up and I see birds fly

Free me for I want to try
And touch the bright open sky
Or live upon mighty trees
Amidst many thousand bees

I sing many different notes
For you to understand my hopes
And what you do is enjoy
My funeral song becomes your joy

You give me the hardest blow
When I hear your boy crow
Which reminds me of my son, Fraum
Snatched away from me with harm

Oh! You users of mighty head
I'm dead before being dead
Let me die and be buried in
Before decaying and thrown in bin

Alas! My heart is small as stones
And greater is of yours
For therefore will I be soon in light
And swing my wings in great delight
Or else become the part of dust
And then we shall meet in life of Must

Turn up the music louder
Boom Boom!
Pump it a bit harder
Chikum Bum!

There is a face I could never forget
Of a mother who always loved me
But,
There was a Chinese
Eyes darkened with black lines
Showed that she loved me
Tricked again someone had me

Alas! She was a liar, I couldn't see that
And blindly followed my hearts path
But,
It was soon over
My mom had warned me
But I never heard her
Now both have left me

That black witch has trapped another guy
Let him too die
But mom where have you gone?
Don't leave me

Please speak up
Why are you sleeping?
Please wake up
Why are you dreaming?

Oh! Brute less people stop pouring mud now
She would drown on her bed then
You all,
Why you came here?
Leave off me
Don't leave her
I will miss her

I loved her, but I never told her
Bless me one last chance to say that
But I'm happy,
Everyday I see her
In my dreams I meet her
But last night
She didn't came up

Why didn't she? I could never know that
But tonight I'll go myself and meet her
Breaking all the bonds from this world
And find my mother who I have long lost
And say,
That I loved her
It was my fault

I let her die when I could save her
That black witch had cast a spell upon me
I was blinded
But now I'm before you
Please forgive me
I am sorry

Hell is not a place for me to rot in
Though in Heaven, I do not wish to live in
But in your arms I would like to fade out
Only then I can find peace in the words I speak out…..

Peace!!

Beacon of hope for others
Yet, darkness inside me
Pushing to take control

At times, I'm broken
At times, I'm hopeful
Confusing times

I chose a life different
A life in which many fail
Where am I? Who knows.

Joys of happiness
Tears of sadness
Each having their share

Roles different
In every mask, I wear
Yet, I smile.
Yet, I cry. 
Sometimes. 

When my plan is there
The plot is different
When my plot is there
The plan is different

Surely, Thy plan is greater than any plans.
Patiently, I wait. 
Patiently, I pray. 

	•	Sameer Ahmed Khan
1st December, 2017

Let a tale be told, so true of present time
Of one teenage boy who did, cross the spiritual line
What elders were to him, merely some amusing clowns
Sorry I am as I speak, he belonged to my country town

Known as brutal killer among politicians he was
Seeked for weapons, pined for work against the laws
Cursed and unblessed, from the deepest of teacher thoughts
A gun in hand he held and roamed, yet him no officer stops

When asked how in university he took his gun
Though all were checked by rangers, and so did come his turn
With a prideful laugh he answered
Nay, its not me who take weapons but is given by fearful rangers

Darksoul
A word Form the ones below the heavens
To the ones who forgot as they stand high
From the one who stand above this hell
And look towards the burning lifeless sky

You cross the line of my patience and rage
Time to ventilate and so I open this cage
To liberate this beast that I hold within
Annihilate my wisdom, to burn this page

Where it once read to forgive and to forget
But where do I hide this decaying regret
You think that I am defeated in this battle
On Guard, for I still have this option left

You took away my heroes, all my pride 
You have gone too far, crossed the line
You say that I'm insane and I am a rebel
It's just that I am not one of your kind

You are guilty of being led by your greed
Betrayal simply is what you leave behind
Your words are a two rimmed jagged blade
The consequence, dreadful fugitive minds

Too Afraid to fight for you own cause
You choose a fool and put him in control
To kill his mind, what ever he stood for
You dictate your plans and steal his soul

You say that I am a rebel and a disease
You just shit out whatever you please
Fuck your thoughts, your judging mind
My true face will leave you on your knees

I will take away everything that you loved
Destroy all your hopes, and your games
For this lost cause, I will fight till my death
A Darksoul I am now, burning in this flame

Sleep my child, be pleased and glad
Let no tear of pain shed and fall
Nor fear the bullets, my walls crawl
Lost and puzzled, are the leaders mad

Smile my son, for the last time with me
Sing a song, for the last time with me
Blend your joy, for the last time with me
Before your very soul this world would flee

Never again you will starve to sleep
Toys you adored, will once be yours
Never again the floors will you sweep
Of rich, pleading money at their doors

Strained and pale, your faint weak eyes look
Magic of poison, you drank must have roused
And now I with you hang on the deaths hook
And then our future would be all exposed

Let's race son, and win the blessings of death
Oh! Slow is your beat and low is your breath
Let's enter the world where a little hope shines
As here nothing is left except enemy lines

Slower and slower I do hear your beat
Faster and faster I do sense my defeat

somewhere someone sometime
tried to talk against the rules
you see his mouth forced shut
what the fuck more can he do

live with what you are given
choose with what you are thrown at
never question for more, never question at all
for the people,by the people,from the people,to fuck the people

the seeds of thought have been planted in desert
the seeds of hope are floating in space
whatever you do you will never be free
welcome my friend to this dictated democracy

who the fuck are we to decide who marries whom
who the fuck are we to decide genders
who the hell are we to kill an opinion
who are we to stop lovers celebrater their love

two parties you can vote for
never mind, one is a bastard other is a joke
whoever you vote nevermind there is no hope
whoever you vote nevermind both way you are fucked

welcome to dictated democracy
war is here within you and me
we all live in scared democracy
we are the regime of dictated democracy

the seeds of thought have been planted in desert
the seeds of hope are floating in space
whatever you do you will never be free
welcome my friend to this dictated democracy

generations of corruption etched in history
future is not a pleasant sight to see
easier to do bad than to do good
my life aint affected saying everyone sleeps
while all along this infectio grows

bunch of overgrown thugs ruining our society
bunch of overgrown thugs ruling our lives
illiterate pieces of shit deciding everything
greedy bastards taking away someone's need

There He comes again,
Night after night,
Day after day,
Begging people for help,
As he's the only one left to feed his son,
His old hands have given up work,
But, still he has the power to beg,
People push him, curse him,
Thinking him as a fake beggar,
Due to all the misconceptions,
Thinking it's his business,
Nor do they know his past,
Nor know his pain,
Which hurts him from beneath the skin,
The day comes to an end,
Stars are up again,
Time to go and feed his only child,
Goes to the dump yard and finds his son,
Son was just three when his mother left,
Alone are he and his son,
in this crowded world,
Filled with hatred,
and no respect for suffering humanity,
Due to all those rumors,
That many beggars are not real needy ones,
But what about the real ones,
The old man seems to be tired of life,
But lives for his son,
Goes on living till life permits,
Knowing soon will he meet death,
Tear drops as he sees his son,
Thinking his future that will be undone,
And soon sleep overcomes his worries,
And he with his son goes to sleep,
It's up to us to help or to curse,
Choose your path if your wise enough.

With fright and fear, I open my little eyes
Throwing the tin sheet away, fallen upon my self
Recalling the sudden deaths, and piercing of their cries
So loud were all they, making me nearly deaf

Mother was what I wanted, to find in that mess
From the dim graveyard of people as I see
Mud and blood covering them, as their dress
Just could I find my mother, and would flee

Found my uncle lying, as source of only help
Questioned about the place, of my only left mother
But didn't heard any reply, for even did I slap
Or did for once, he forgot I saved his brother?
	
As no one listened me, I became a bit eager
To find the most precious thing, ever I had
Coldness of air was felt, as I moved on further
As I wished to follow all, what my mother said

There she was lying on the barren land, under the fallen wall
Tears so cold, rolled down my shocked little face
Cold I stood there alone, to face this all
My all hopes faded, with thundering of pace

Didn't had the strength, to move close to her
Wish I could see on her face, her last sweet smile
Somebody wake me, this is the dream I fear
Why wouldn't I wake, with my own little style?

Wake me mother, for I no longer want to sleep
Why won't these tears stop falling and rolling down?
All of a sudden, why am I feeling weak as I was strong?
Ran across the street, and to the middle of no where
Fell on the ground and begged, for I did great wrong

Oh Lord Above! Can you hear my true desire?
Rewind all, and never let that punishment occur
And inject fear upon us, from the wrath of above fire
And forgive us our past, and prepare us for the future
For this is my last small little, desire

Endless Flight…

There once I saw a falcon on the highest steep
Who pushed her son and down the valley he fell
In air he rolled and flapped his wings the hardest he could
And with a sudden jerk balanced himself and felt the air he never had

And if the height was endless and never he learned to fly
Would fear and pressure then become his eternal torture?
Or would there raise a thought of death in his mind?
Or would his mother be cursed who threw him down?

Such pity state is of us mortals dwelling here
Who never have reached their path and never they shall
Nor learned the lesson to live and never they shall
Victim of chaos and havoc, fallen they have all

Oh what a shame on you and I on all our very deeds
Long once the hand that plucked flowers, for the ones we loved
Now the same plucks life for the ones heavenly cursed
Would not their hearts tremble or blinded they are all

I do not know to where we go, but happy there is made a day
Where all deeds, bitter or noble, shall unfold
And by One Law, You and I, for our deeds big or small
Shall be judged and to heaven or hell, we shall march and go!

With a crumbled heart and troubled face
I curse my miserable fate
Entranced amid the dreadful chase
Death is what I silently await

Look my friends, my hands are weak
And my crime is high as I speak
Evil did never leave, for once alone
In the night and the day it brightly shone

Today my tears must go upon
And bring forgiveness all along
Oh Lord! Do hear my silent plea
For death is dancing as I see

Though my sins are mighty than the sea
And much open than the blue sky
But Your forgiveness tops the list
And makes me smile before I die

Freedom word, will always remain
Locked within the dictionary chain
Million tears soar for its name
Million cries roar for its claim
For neither shall have any gain
Fear and pain will they only sustain
From great leaders upright without shame
Killers they are, for glory and fame
There laid the father abruptly killed
Vanished were his dreams unfulfilled
His son sits holding his father's hand
Left he was alone, on this barren land
His eyes flashed as he held a sharp pen
And in a flash he ripped his heart open
There he gasped his last breath
And with coward ness he met death
Ah! Come my leader see, this is real
And all other pains and tears we bear
What courage to you, can one show?
Who are devils and make hell glow
Surely I shall meet you in Hereafter
And will seize you with all your allies
There your cries will be our laughter
Yet, blood shall replace your tearful eyes
And silently we would drill to Heaven
There our thirst for freedom shall die

Strange I see the state of mortals here
Fearing the past and living with constant fear
Though the beauty of this place is divine
Haunted it is, these cowards define

Tonight at this place I shall stay
And hope to meet the one untold, unknown
As I was about to scan what one old paper read
A voice sweeter than the cuckoo bird in air did blend

And in a darkened room sat a bride, lowering her eyes
Those pearl eyes winked as she blessed me her sight
There I got the hardest blow a woman could cite
And in my heart love for her, was alight

Such beauty reminded me of some forgotten dreams
But those now were none, but some begotten screams
And past when once elapsed should not be evoked
And the lady here, all my pleasures owed

I moved a bit further, to lock her in my arms
But Alas! Barked my dog and she was gone
Vanished to some place, I know not where
Was it an angel, or some illusion I could never declare

But there in darkness gleamed on paper bright
"A lady was starved to death this very night"
I trembled; I cried and kept my fears aside
And with a bit of courage I stood to revisit my bride

I reached the valley where long once I came
And wept more as I searched her name
And found the blurred name, below the dead tree
And upon the filthy grave dug by me
I bowed down, kissed the dust and silently wept
But then, amid the soil a hand roused and grasped my neck
And one voice echoed the valley, "This is not over yet!"

Peace!

Glorious men, searching their path
Rulers insane, unleashing their wrath
Mercy pleads those hands weak
Vote for me, these cowards speak

Disguised and hidden in law they are
Yelling peace, yet playing ruthless war
Struggle not my mates, their end I own
Their heart is cold, yet mine has grown

No mate, no comrades have I
Graves of them, side by side lie
Beneath that tree, rests of mine
Body below the land, yet soul divine

Laugh not Oh demons of night
Angels from Heaven have joined the fight
Dig one more, to the lowest crust
Ruler tonight must taste of dust

I have been crying in the dark,
Searching for the answers.
For which I got this terrible life.
I had friends in the beginning,
but soon they started fading,
soon started teasing me;
making my life miserable,
I really didn't got the reason,
Was it that I had something wrong?
No one allows me to go out now,
I am trapped between these four walls,
All walls seem to burst at me,
Trying to shout at me,
No one tries to make me free,
There's just a window which amuses me,
This brightens my Past memories,
Memories of my pleasant childhood,
Till that accident happened,
And then all was dark,
Opened my eyes in-between these walls,
Surrounded by ghosts in white,
Said I was no more normal,
Cause of the damage on my brain,
They and their theory just goes on,
Wish I could turn back time,
15 years passed and I am still trapped,
Waiting for some magic to occur,
But still I have a dream;
Gleaming in my mind,
As it's my only hope to be free again,
And see the world in light,
Bright as it seems from here,
And be with the beautiful nature,
Filled with happiness and life.

Moon did grin as the shadows crept
And there the devil to me did brag
Of all the evils for us he kept
And how he raised his blackish flag

Five years passed since that dreadful day
At the very same door I stand as before
The same old place where the demon did stay
   stay

Dedicated to My Friends

One Saturday night, moon did evilly grin
I adoring its light, smashed the crystal door
Shreds of glass shattered, yet piercing my skin
What pain was, before the shock I bore?

At the knee, beneath the pant
I could feel the cold blood slant
Dimmer got my very sight
As faintness grinned in delight

Bone could I see, amid the ripped flesh
Though blood poured down as spring water fresh
Blessed I was, for I had the power of friends
The ones which the Glorious Heaven sends

They fought my way through the crowd
Which yelled, the price be paid aloud
For money has great affect on hearts
And from such, every angel departs

Hospital I was taken, by my one pal
While the other stayed, replying every yell
And again one rushed his way, from his home
To see me at the place, where the angels roam

There I met, my greatest nightmare
Syringe in me, must go, I did hear
I cried and roared for I feared it most
Needle its way pierced, wish I was a ghost

Then came the time for sewing my knee
As the needle stitches the silent cloth
My skin was sewed before I could flee
Being special ingredient for witches broth

Charges all were paid by my friends
To them, the mighty Heaven defends
And here again I say one is blessed
When he has his mortal friends while depressed

Don't be jealous if you have none
But look upon the shiny solitary sun
And how clouds for its rescue come
For such, you will have friends in your later life run
Like I have mine, from God I have won

Dance today my friends, for the last time with me
Sing songs of your heart, for the last time with me
Young child don't weep, my death is at its peak
The disease I bore makes this the last night to sleep
No tear should shed, in this last night of mine
No hope for life be made, in this last night of mine
Come here little one; take this gift for you I brought
And here son, take this money for you I fought
Why silence rules this air and none fights it on?
Oh my son! Why and where are you leading me alone?
Can none of you hear my shouts in air being flown?
Oh! My street has passed and so has the church gone
And this place looks dark and scary seems the place
Hush my son! Don't throw mud on my old weary face
Ah! This place, Oh! My son, give me bed to sleep
Some creature of dark creeps on my body weak
Where have all you fled, my sons, friends and foes?
All here is getting darker, darker and -silence weeps

Cursed I would have been, a thousand times
From several birds, sitting in unique lines
Surrounding the lifeless, dead sparrow
Yet being quiet and still in cage so narrow

Small, the cage never was for all I know
But a mighty dwelling for all the birds to grow
The nightingale did once sang a melodious tune
With many birds dancing, as the moon shone

Stranger day was today, with death like silence
Freedom was what their pearl eyes wanted I guess
Haven't I given food to them in abundance?
Or an enormous cage to live and progress?

With swift of time, I fell from a sudden blow
From where it came, I could never know
As I laid, I witnessed some truth which I'll share
A leader commanding, for a cave to prepare

But no digger dug, for they stood still
Flowing silent tears for the numb child
Who did work against his fathers will
And met death, as he slightly smiled

But the heartless leader struck them hard
Work he wanted, as death was to him of no regard
Oh leader! Don't you see their hope is lost?
Once they escape, hunted you will be at any cost

A sweet song was heard, due to which I awoke
And there my dead sparrow stood, as I earlier spoke
The dream I had, made some good in me
And in flash, I stood and made my birds free

They flew here and there, yet delighted was I more
And now their song, in my heart I bore
Enlightens my vision of my ruler here
Who loves nothing but glory and fame to hear

My own country he did change into dungeon
Yet my tears and prayers must go upon
And change the way it had been all along
So I can sing a better, joyful song

Paranoia ...
Come with me, O Soul of the Dark 
Let's embrace the mist of paranoia 
And commemorate this tyranny of deceit
Till we find a breathing space,
The morgue of our broken dreams … 

Laying in wait on the plain of life,
Trampled by the cattle of doom
Death is playing hide and seek
The toy is wrecked, the pieces are lost 
The child in me is destined to weep …
Hope is unearthed from the crypt
Tell me, can you raise the Dead?
Faith lay stripped in the brothel of truth
I heed the mourns yet the pain is unfelt … 

Yet again there's nothing left to mislay
I am clutched in this oblivion
An infinite ambiguity breathes in me 
As I wail a voiceless, useless cry
Oh won't you come and salvage me?

Come with me, O Soul of the Dark 
Let's embrace the mist of paranoia 
And commemorate this tyranny of deceit
Till we find a breathing space,
The morgue of our broken dreams

This night, evil cannot haunt me again
This minute, I will pledge The Heaven God
This second, tears of my soul would drain
This moment, shattered in silence I'm Lord

In the bright day, amid the dark night
How often had I done wrong, with delight
Father! Forgive me, you I never knew well
Mother! Bless me, or in hell I would dwell

For once I was brave and mighty strong
But my world was harsh and I had to live on
God! I knew not, was I right or wrong?
But tonight, fear of thy wrath and tears I own

Dark is the night, filled by music of graves
Oh Lord! Answer me; I am of your slaves
Bear You cannot our tears, I have been told
But the truth of Your Books, should now unfold

As I wept and bowed, I did see an angel bright
What rays of moon were, against this creature of light?
There blessed I was a note, by his softly hands
It read, "Washed your all sins are this very night"

Relaxed and happy I was, as the angel left
And yet peacefully on my bed I slept
This night was when I thought I did a tricky play
And this night was when my soul left and passed away

Early morning smell of the breeze
And the gushing water, Oh please
Do tell me what secrets you know
How the rulers ruled long ago?

Was it by the power of God they ruled?
Or by the wisdom and courage they bloomed
Why no one there pleaded for water and food
Or is this century filled of people screwed

O Silent Ocean! speak the truth now or never
O angels of heaven speak the truth of never
What joy you get, seeing our hearts curse and bleed?
Starved are many, you were supposed to feed

Tomorrow is the day of happiness for all
Yet today, I don't want to bleed and fall
Eid shall be held tomorrow, and three days for
What clothes to me, food is all I implore

O Men! witness, the brightest day is not far
For the ruler, shall be dragged in his own bar
Then he would feel the pain of sick and the old
And in heaven his deeds would silently unfold

Endless Winter
Under a barrage Of falling rain,
Why is the water so calm?
Still life all around thrives,
And dead is the silent palm.

The coldest shivers in the rain of winter,
Under a bleeding inky iodine sky,
A whispering breath of icy chill,
And a dying Teal's Cry.

An unborn child's dying wish,
Of a world of noises profound,
Lost in a shower of falling rain,
Lost alone on deadly ground.

Stranded under an endless sky,
Under moonlit clouds of a silent night,
A lonesome winter star falls,
And the purging darkness swallows the light.

All hope has died with the waning sun,
The Sky still cries with all its might,
But the water is again still as glass,
And all around the stillness dies. 
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Smiles, circles, dreams, air, life, happy..
Ripples painted across the sky,
stretched like a curtain with dreams to hide,
apathetic,shadows crawl across the land,
eyes shut, to windows open wide.

Mama, I saw a hole in the sky,
gaping yellow,screaming, burning in red,
it called out to me, spinning a web of hope,
promising me of worlds im yet to see.

Curling around my feet, slowly glides away,
drops rolling off finger tips, back to where they belong,
whispering secrets, keeping me safe,
a drifter, aimlessly, drowning me in his songs.

Father this world wasnt meant for me,
these marble floor's hurt more than broken pebbles do,
Its thoughts flow against the waves in my head,
these hearts are to cold, and theyr freezing me too.

And their hands just feel water, not the life it contains,
Dont you see how the wind can teach you to fly?
these hands wish to write,and this mind to learn,
fingers wish to crawl around in paint for awhile.

And I can make lives on this sand, give meaning, give hope,
paint faces and words upon rocks that burn,
draw souls out of mud and bodies out of thread,
and they'l still have a heart more willing to learn.

And i cant breathe as they choke me with their static minds,
tied tightly in silver threads. with cheap mettalic glow,
these spikes are getting closer father, your walls will crush me to death,
I think its time, you let me go.

As there I sat silent and idle
A dead small voice spoke to me
"Though you are so full of misery
Were it not better not to be?"
I thought it once, yet again I thought
What it said was right or not

Self blinded I was by my pride
And harsh seemed the world from every sight
But then, I recalled the worlds my father said
Look up through night, the world is wide
And when I pondered this thought
Arouse the dark moaning voice

"Though you are steeped in misery
Surely it were better not to be
Your anger will not let you sleep
And you cannot much think, but shall only weep"
A crystal silence was castled unto me
The words it spoke, cannot be ignored

Then I glanced the light piercing through sky
Some beamed mild and some with great intense
Could I too, like them make some difference?
Or be forgotten, in this world of sense?
Laughed there the voice that never laughed
But to tease the ones, who lost their path

"You have not gained any real height
Nor are you any nearer to the light
Your all hopes, shall be ended in smokes
Because the scale to go is infinite"
"Nay" I replied to the very voice
Such words may not bring me any closer to death

If, for you, I went to the world far away
And met death as you will to say
My funeral would go unwept, unhonoured and unsung 
And people would speak of me in low
Doing dishonor, again to my clay
And such shame, my soul cannot bare

"This is more vile" he made reply
"To breathe and strive, to live and sigh
Than once from dread of pain to die
Useless you are, sick and ill
Fear of men, but a coward still"

"O dull one sided voice" said I
You will make everything but a lie
To flatter me that I may die
But I am a man, full of hopes
And your words for some, may be true
But these for me are piety jokes

I could as you say, rot like a weed
And meet death, the darkest shade
But will to sow, some generous seed
Which enlights the heart, that forgot to beat
And fruitful it becomes, pure of thought and deed
And wish to live, rather than sleep

I saw a man at his work
Rowing hard against the stream
Saw distant gates of Heaven gleam
Sowing himself in every wind
A didn't dream it was a dream
And seemed to hear a heavenly friend

I recalled the words Tennyson said,
"A life of nothings, nothing worth
From that first nothing ere his birth
To that last nothing under earth"
But these thoughts comes to such
Having a healthy mind and owning a pure heart

Moreover, something is or seems
That touches me with mystic gleams
Soft, cold like breeze it feels
Like some glimpses of forgotten dreams
Of something felt, like something there
Of something done, I know not where

I paced my way through the forest
And felt the mystic smell enriching my Brest
Making me feel a man who always was blest
The leaves, the flowers why seemed so new
Alas! My frozen heart began to beat
Remembering its ancient heat

I passed the stream and wandered on
The dull and bitter voice was gone
But a second voice was at my ear
A little whisper silver clear
A murmur, "Be of a better cheer"
I smiled and asked it further

What is it you know, sweet voice?
"A hidden hope", the voice replied
I wondered as I paced along
The nature was filled, so full with songs
There seemed no room for sense of wrong
Just the leaves dancing here and there

So different seemed all things wrought
I wonder how the mind was brought
To anchor out of many, one gloomy thought
And therefore, today I made a choice
To commune with that sweet voice
Then follow that said, "My men, rejoice rejoice!"

Send me to a place where I could breathe
Free from taxes, dues and loans
And away from armies, armed to teeth
Where true humans only live, no beast exist
Covered with mortal skin and flesh, controlling world
Snatching from poor, and we absurdly resist

I tried to fight with life and survive
Had my ends and maintained my rights
And took the shortest way to live
But when weeps a child, at the mid of nights
And his father unable, to fulfill the lack of food
How could I sleep, with my stomach full?

This world, nothing but a place where I suffocate
Where the rich get richer, and poor perish
Help me breathe or silently await
The wrath of thousands, which melted or dissolved
Some in the air, some below the soil
Seeking revenge from whomever they could

The weapons you behold are merely some toys
That bleeds one, and turns him to immortal being
But before that, slays your own very heart
And turns it to a stone, that never knows
What love is or the simple joys of life
And to destruction and chaos your path flows

As little drops of water, little grains of sand
Make the mighty ocean, and the huge land
Why streams of innocent blood, and children slain
Doesn't make the Heaven fall, or the tyrants cry
Is it not they have the same heart as of mine
Or is it the power that changed their mind

What courage could I show, to speak of the rulers
Who want to demolish the image of Almighty Lord
The one which we held with much fame and pride
Ah! What honor it was, what pleasure was felt inside
But now again, tired and weak, I am back my God
Bless me the light that for once I had lost

Do help me breathe, in your very own World
Where peace and prosperity prevails
And no man fights for money, land or for fun
For such psychos, in every minute are born
Let me live if such day is yet to come
Or suffocate my lungs and decay amid the seas

Some where in Arab, it all began
From the sky, beneath the sea came
Thousand militants for our land to claim
Destruction and chaos they only gave
Terrorists they were, knew the brave
Powerless and weak we fought them all
When one fell, other would stand like wall
There the lonesome man with silent moan
Carried and buried his family all alone
Today, the last coffin would be laid
Of his only left son who disobeyed
And left to battle, the slayer of his mother
But little the child knew, the path further
And was welcomed by an assassin shell
Surely wind did hear the howling of his pain
And felt raged tears that were ready to chain
But with grief and sorrow the man thought
With sticks and stones, enemy can't be fought
For thousand ways came in his rusted brain
But only one, could his body restrain
He leapt and crept, behind his foe
And rolled a tear being gradual and slow
And pushed the lever, yet tried to lock his eyes
Exploded himself, punishing all in surprise
And bestowed peace upon many souls
With joy he met his family on seven skies
And amused his son with flowers in paradise
Hero he was, for his suffered nation knows
Terrorist act is what, the world would expose

We blame it all on politicians,
Their words are never true.
In shadows and in silence,
They smile like me and you.

I pledge allegiance to a country without borders,
A place without a name.
A flag that's drained of colours,
And an empty government.

The soldiers are still marching,
I thought they were coming home to me.
A stranger in a stranger land,
I am an anomaly.

They blame it on the people,
We blame it on the war.
The violence of our neighbours,
Whoever you are.

The papers, they don't lie,
But they never say the truth.
The mighty never cry,
Let's hope they're haunted by me and you.

Those whose cups are overfilled,
Will never go on a hunger strike.
Lay back kid, let the television feed you,
Give in to your demise.

And history sings again,
A choir of broken souls.
Capitalism is here to stay,
I salute the status quo.

Now they're shutting down the factory,
When all the bills are due.
And the soldiers, they're all leaving,
Just when the war is through.

So let's blame it on the politicians,
Whose words are never true.
Let us close our eyes and never see,
They're just like me and you.

We are the ones who made them,
It's for them that we chant.
A reason to hate, a justification,
We are the slaves of what we want.

So I'm walking out of here,
For I can't sing this through.
I wish I could paint this town 'red',
Wish I could open your eyes to you.

I'll pledge allegiance to a country without borders,
Where the people have no names.
Let's raise the flag that's drained of colours,
Bring down the government.

Let us not depart to the Promised Land,
Let us be free.
Bound by chains, but of the human hand,
Let's be the anomaly.

The Judgment Day

Let me tell you a tale, which should make you pale
A story of an ancient place, called Buffer Zone
Where a person ruled with great might, called Bridgestone
For neither he was any king, nor was he strong
For I did hear, he had a thousand men spread in country town
Like servants they acted, making him feel of a great renown
Soon winds did change, as he had a bullet drenched in him
Cursed he was from thousand widows recording his film
"Take what you can, with you" cursed a little boy
Who lost his brother and now used to play with his brittle toy
There laid the man, seeing mud pouring in from hands
Even did he shouted to stop, to his worthless friends
Soon grave did burst into thousand venomous snakes
Snakes so long, though one can change into thousand flakes
For centuries passed, the grave hurtled like thorns
How he wished to flee, throwing all his magnificent crowns
Alas! The last trumpet was blown by the angel of light
Great sinners wandered here and there, and religious hearts were in delight
As all had 'Books of Deeds' bestowed upon their hands
Waiting to be judged by Mighty Ruler, servile of all bands
Thundering voice called Bridgestone amidst the crowd
There came the man shattered in heart, who always was proud
"What good have you brought?" asked the Mighty Voice
Silent stood the ruined man, for he had no any choice
Oppressed were called amidst the crowd, as the man cried in shame
Hundreds of proud faces came, for it was he yet to blame
He cried and cried, and even did he lied in fright
In lightening time, all his deeds of evil were upon his eyes bright
Drained were all tears, yet blood took its place in disgrace
He fell on the ground, down his knees, on his fierce face
Down the order echoed, to the hell he must go
All his pride died and was ruined by a sudden blow
Their, I creature of light saw the man dragged, who never was polite
For such thousand men have I seen, who cried and lied
And many more who died and lost their all pride
Out of my will, cannot show the path to hell or way to heaven
But still want you in florescence garden, instead of dark dungeon

I retreat in shadows again
An enemy full of shame
What sign of peace could I ever be?
When a war within is only I see

Whisper to me O silent Breeze!
How a threat like me, should live?
Like a carnage lost in deserts
Drowning amid the silent sands

My Mom! Where have you gone?
One patient wife I've ever known
Her smile was soft yet tearful eyes
To her every angel in wonder stares

I know not if I'm a poet or a song unsung
But in darkness lits a weakened light
And for it I searched the darkest of nights
Yet returned, all strained and weakened my sight

I glanced down the mountain heights
In hope of freedom, tossing all
But one coward warrior, I stood still
Before the love that I never dreamt or felt

A pain in my chest began to toll
Of something good, something bad, I cannot tell
Few drops of tears rolled down the cheeks
And then flooded more, reviving all  

I returned back with no hope of light
And flipped the pages of Holy Guide
And there, the words glistened now as I write
You are the darkness, you are the light
What you seek is what you sight

(November ‎26, ‎2007)

Here I am, back from death
To take your last, howling breath
Back from dungeon, back from cell
To drag you to the place I call Hell
No more worries, no more fears
Bring up all your fucking players
I won't die and I don't lie
But leader, your turn is now to cry
Hear the roaring of the dead
Haunting you to get some blood
Hungry mouths, thirsty throats
Searching you those restless souls
No more pleading for your votes
Start begging to the ones in stones
Sing a song my little one
At the funeral of the leaders son
Look how he cries and how he dries
Forgetting thousands everyday he strikes
Oh my singing time has nearly end!
Let me rip your brain and in red it blend
Oh what a sight this is to me!
And for those, who this for God did plea
Today I killed one mighty beast
And now I sleep and rest in peace!

Muhabbat aksar logon ko rula dayti hai,
Ek baar ho jai tou khuda ko bhula dayti hai,
Ek baar is ka jaam pi ker tou dekho,
Gham-e-janaan say lard ker tou dekho,

Azeem hain woh ashiq jo jiye ja rahay hain,
Apnay hontoon say ashq piye ja rahay hain,
Kia Zindagi aur maut say wasta unko.....
Dusroon ki khushion kayliye jiye jarahay hain!

Aye dost ye hargiz nahe zaroori,
Kay had say paar ye dard ho jai,
Aur phr ek shiffa ki rooshni si day jai,
Qissay kahanion mein log jitnay bhi aye,
Ashqoon say ghamoon ka bazaar khareed gai!

Mat kaho pyaar ko itna bura bhala,
Kay woh jalna hi chord day,
Woh tou ek aag jaisa hai,
Jo khud bhi jalta hai aur jala dayta hai

Khuda khuda tou kerta hai Banday
Miskeenon say bhi muhhabbat tou karta hai banday,
Per apnay dil per hath rakh ker zara bata,
Kia huwa  nahe tujay bhi Ishq kisi say banday,
Kia tapkay nahe kuch ashq kisi ki yaad mein teray

Woh shairi kia jissay na ho razi Khuda aur na Ibn-e-Adam
Larazta hai aasman tou mazloomon kay ashqoon say bhi

Woh kehtay hain kay kuch likhnay say pehly soch lia kartay hain
Woh Poll mein nay nahe, Baligh-ur-rehman nay he banay hai!

Kisi ko yahan kon manta hai,
Mujko tou sirf mera Khuda janta hai!

Who is to be blamed?

When sky roars in anger or weeps with a sigh
Is it the Heaven to be blamed or our deeds inflamed?
We wish, we plead, we pray and alas we die
Though never comes thy message, but an angel black

Why is that, poor mans kid alone, bears all the pain
While there, the rich mans son, ruins the lives of many
For all are equal as Your Books revealed
Your truth, Your words these men wish to be concealed

Lost they had their many friends but hope to live
For Good Heaven! They wish to live rather than survive
Are we so cursed that cannot for once be forgiven
Or is it thy wrath we fear, never ending

Might it be the deeds of our ancestors Thy anger
For we had maintained our rights and lived our way
Or is this what we ourselves console, though the truth might be else
But what ever it may be, we are what we are

A bunch of prideful men, innocence we portray
Like nothing we had done, knowing all we do
If we are to be blamed, might it be right
But why our tears and blood, could not be answered before Thy sight